Journal / Photo blog

you can only flow with the change, enjoy the ride, and take advantage of the beauty when you accept and love nature in it's varying forms

I have been intending to make this post for a while now, as I got back many film photos that I have taken over the past year recently and have been wanting to share them. Then I was reading through my journal the other day and thought it might be interesting to give you a glance into my brain.... So I came up with the idea of pulling segments of my journal entries and partnering them with this batch of film photos. It actually took a lot longer than I thought it would, as I realized how personal my writing is in my journal, and how I wanted the photos to somewhat correspond or at least harmonize with the words. The quotes are short, but succinct. They display my inner struggles, my doubts, fears, and my attempts at confidence boosting and grounding. It is finally coming together as I have managed to badly injure my knee and am stuck on a couch for a while. Ice, compression, therapy, food, sleep, and blogging.
I hope you can enjoy reading this post as much as I did composing it.

so many blank, clean pages to look forward to

I am getting closer to being ready to trust, ready to believe in myself

trust your decisions -- trust your instinct, trust your body

and, you have already decided anyway. so that's that.

...I was reminded that you don't have to search for that quiet, calm, confident and still place. It exists inherently. It is always there.

pure flow, pure focus, is our most essential self

heading to a balanced, driven, calm state where I need to be

I wish I could have kept on believing

that is the real me that I want to harness

know that this is exactly where you're supposed to be

maybe that creature of self-doubt will return...

to believe, to play, to revel in that silent, joyful curiosity

when one is truly acting from the heart, performing from the soul, they do not care about what others think

how to enjoy something that you don't necessarily like is a difficult feat. Just because it isn't your style, per-se, doesn't mean you can't embrace it, enjoy it, welcome what Mother Nature has to give you, with open arms

lay in the sun, play in the ocean, bury yourself in the sand, HEAL

I didn't feel the sun shining on me very often

he reminds me that it is about the journey, that there is so much joy and pure pleasure to be found in every day, every run, every breath

believe, just for the sake of believing

the training wasn't great, but the mountains were gorgeous

anchor yourself to the present moment

it is the darkness, the mind, that covers it up and makes you forget the light

that got into my head and freaked me right out. in the end my doubt and deep, internal fear took over

to care about others so deeply that you no longer make comparisons....

your position gives you the opportunity to move beyond the boundaries of where you are physically

I am working on my calm

it feels so nice to feel the fluid-ink run out of the tip as I make these marks

see the world, every person, every relationship, every conversation as an opportunity to practice.

love them, listen to them, watch them and know that, like all thoughts, they are fleeting and not real

"the nullifying, defeating, negating, repeating joy of life" - Joanna Newsom

let your light shine through the strength of that connection